I’ve been thinking of this post for a while I have spent a lot of time, sweat, tears, and Hard work in the saddle of many horses and held lots of childrens hands seen them fall,shake, hyperventilate, cry, scream, and all out have melt downs every child in tha comes is a special gift from the lord that I believe he sends to me for help and in areas that are not always visible to most people. This has never been about just throwing people on horses and teaching them to turn, stop, and go. I actually started to teach safety and then my husband had an accident that left him unable to work for quite a while and causes a lot of pain. I started praying of how we would make it and I was pushed to horses I kept getting the answe Horses I had made a little money but never enough to make it. I was like ok so I fought and dug down I worked 6 jobs I did things I never dreamed of and my life was spiraling out of control parents dying, bills piling, sibling arguing, friends bailing, it Was crazy times I ended up getting hurt bad and i said what do I do now lord I got the most scolding answer “ i told you to do Horses “ well due to injury I couldn’t ride so I was like how is this going to work I cannot ride, I cannot saddle, and I cannot even hardly catch a horse I only could use one arm. So oh great mighty father how is this going to work.
Oh the next few weeks it was thrown at me so many times I felt like I was literally being slapped by the big man himself repeatedly over and over again. Oh and the people around me my boss, husband, friends, community, and family were anything but supportive and I sat in tears and anguish over all that was happening.
Then one day me My one armed self went to the corral starring at the horses I kept hearing the whispers of horses horses horses over and over I got a halter out asi walked un surelay to the corral my old man pinenuts came over to me and put his head in halter and i managed to get it done up one handed I was like ok what now as he put his head in my chest i prayed.
Time after time I caught him, I got a student and cousin to come help saddle and stood at the end of the arena feeling useless teaching lessons, then one night right after my daily pleading with god the phone rang and it was a grandmother wanting help granddaughter, the next few days I got calls from all sorts I filled classes with adult, teenagers, young kids and all with emotional And physical hurdles as I worked on the sideline with being a one winged bird I saw the direction he was taking me and oh boy did I resist I was like I am not a therapist and I have enough of my own issues that’s when I learned I wasn’t in control things flew out of my mouth I didn’t know nothing about I was a puppet in this magical healing of hearts, souls and bodies oh the goodness that came to each client and myself. Oh the smiles will tell it all.
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